If you absolutely hate being productive..

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? If age was defined by our personal defeats and those stubborn scars, the ones worn on our hearts and not our sleeves, then I would have no choice other than to deem myself a very old soul. On the other hand, I like to think that you are what you believe and I believe I have a long, beautiful life ahead of me so let's go with 1. Yep, 1 sounds refreshing. 
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying? Failing is my biggest fear in life but it will never come close to wondering if I would've succeeded if I had only tried.
3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? Good question. -- My guess: Beauty in the unknown and insecurity within the consistency. 
4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? I'm afraid due to my personality I will always have said too much but I can only hope that I will have spoken words at some point or another that have affected others to do good and that I in return can learn to do half as much as I speak.
5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? Banish jealousy. It is truly the root of all evil... think about it.
6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich? I would be working with orphaned children around the world. If I could be a million people, I would want to do so much more (especially with children) but there is no love that can replace the comfort provided by a parent so why not try to give those kids the closest thing possible?                    
7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing? I am settling with getting by and dreaming for what I believe in.
8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently? I would live my life exactly the same, every day like it's my last. There are a lot of days I'd be pretty pissed if I suddenly died because my last few hours, days, and weeks were pretty lame but I'm working on changing that. Shoot.. if we're going by these standards I'm going to be over the hill soon :/
9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken? I'd love to say I've had to sit back and be life's victim so I could have an excuse for what a crappy job I've done at times but in the scheme of things, I always have and will have complete control over the course my life takes.
10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? Hmm... this is too confusing to answer while trying to watch the Office. Sorry :(
11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do? Jokingly set them straight and end the laugh fest with a "... but no, seriously" , aka my solution to every awkward talk that I am not mature enough to just simply have.
12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? Know you are perfect just the way God made you--- that complete and total admiration your parents had for you from the second the doctor placed you in their arms, don't forget that. No one can ever take the fact that you are loved from you.
13. Would you break the law to save a loved one? Rules were made to be broken, come on now...
14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity? Everyone is kind of insane, I think it's just the crazy talented people that we label as REALLY insane because we aren't sharp enough to understand their logic--- so yes, insanity and creativity go hand and hand.
15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people? Smile. Don't you remember your mama telling you your smile is like a snowflake, one of a kind? Haha, maybe that was just because I didn't have front teeth for a while but it's true regardless :)
16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy? Because that would be too easy.
17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?  What’s holding you back? Travel the world... This little thing called finances. 
18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? Guilt, it's a stubborn little emotion though so maybe it'll eventually decide to let go of ME!
19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why? I would love to live in Greece! Why? Well.. who wouldn't?
20. Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster? I push my floor one time but I click away on the "close door" button until the cows come home. Yes, I know the elevator does not jet off due to my persistence but it does distract me from the awkwardness of being in a box with strangers.
21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? Joyful simpleton, any day.
22. Why are you, you? Because God is great. 
23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? I can honestly say yes even though I have had some bad luck finding people worth being a good friend to.
24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?  Definitely losing touch with someone you have no excuse for drifting away from.
25. What are you most grateful for? My health and faith.
26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones? This question is unfair but I'm going to have to go with never being able to make new ones because I wouldn't be the person I am today without my past.
27. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first? I'd say so.
28. Has your greatest fear ever come true? Yes and it taught me to never do anything you can't go a day without kicking yourself over.
29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now? Maybe not five years ago but there will always be times we do remember and they may not really matter now but they are still really important because where they have led us.
30. What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special? There is no way I could ever pinpoint one childhood memory, I had a very happy childhood made special by my amazing family. Yep, I gave THAT answer. :)
31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive? October 29, 2010. Secrets, secrets.  
32. If not now, then when? Tomorrow. Procrastinate like a pro.
33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose? Not a thing. Every day can start a new life so why wait?
34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?  Maybe the same feeling as having a good conversation but I'm a talker so there has to be some genuine words exchanged for me to actually nail that sensation.
35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars? Cause if love isn't the root of all war, I don't know what is.
36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil? I think there is a little evil in all good and visa versa so this is a very unanswerable question.
37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?  Sadly a million dollars just isn't what is used to be but since I make minimum wage and am a youngin'... yes, I probably would and I would then live recklessly and waste every penny of it.
38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing? I would much rather have work I loved doing so it wouldn't feel like work and then this question would no longer even apply.
39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before? I'm currently enjoying the CMA's which won't happen a 100 times in my lifetime but other than that, yes unfortunately this day has been very ordinary.
40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in? I can't tell you the last time I did it but I can tell you that it is something in my near future.
41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today? I would hope to see more than one person but if I had to chose, I would visit the one person I need forgiveness from so I could die without regrets.
42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous? I think being either one of those is probably extremely overrated but I would reduce my life ten years to gain some of the experiences those people do... minus the paparazzi and shots of my untoned butt in grocery store lines.
43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living? Everything.
44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right? Today, because when it gets down to the nitty gritty... every risk is worth taking so you don't have to wonder "what if?"
45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? Learning from a mistake doesn't mean it doesn't still suck. Whoever said school was fun?
46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? Oh lord, I would LIVE! Eat what tasted amazing despite it being on the top of a Paula Dean cookbook, wear what was comfortable instead of what was flattering, stop giving a crap! Whoo, wouldn't that be the day.
47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing? Last power yoga class during mediation. Only noticed the sound of my breathing because it was more like weezing than deep relaxing inhales. What's up out of shape Malia?
48. What do you love?  Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love? I love life, I am making major changes in the future that will express just that. You wait and see
49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that? Probably not but in many ways, that is probably a blessing. We generally remember the traumatic and remarkable events--- there are only so many days that can be amazing so at least I'm dodging the trauma bullets during my weeks of mediocrity.                                                                                                                                                                       
50. Decisions are being made right now.  The question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you? For once, I think I finally am.